Brittain, Vera, Diary, 22 August 1915

Diary of Vera Brittain


Case Study: 
From Youth to Experience: Vera Brittain’s Work for Peace in Two World Wars
Brittain, Vera
22 August 1915
McMaster University Libraries
Vera Brittain estate; McMaster University has a non-exclusive licence to publish this document.


young in years, and she would thoroughly disapprove of the average man taking such a step at such an age. But she had always been as much a comrade as a mother to Roland. She knew him so well and realized that he was so much older for his age than most people. He always had known his own mind & chosen rightly, & she knew he would not take such a step as this without due consideration & understanding of all that it implied, for he had such a sense of duty and honour and had always been anxious to make everything straight that seemed to him the least bit crooked. It was easy to see as she talked that she had often speculated on his possible love-affairs and on the nature of girl he would ultimately want to marry. He had never been interested in any other girl before me, though he has such a liking & understanding for women in general; he had never had any of the short-lived & violent love affairs that most young men are liable to, and had never even shown any tendency in that direction. This one with me had, she always felt, been above any suspicion of that kind of short-lived passion; it had been altogether so quiet and had grown so gradually though a long time. She said she has known as long ago as last summer that I meant something of importance to Roland & it had certainly been a shock to her then. So much so that when Victor was staying with them she took him aside on day & made him tell her all he knew about me. He did not of course know me very well, but told her I was very good-looking, only I had a cynical mouth, and was in fact rather cynical altogether. "She rather despised me, I think," he said, "But then you see I'm not clever, & I expect she